im feeling down.. depressed even.. sighs.. no mood lah.. well, i tot sinc eits affecting me so much.. i might as well post it here... sigh.. i miss hide.

this was wat yoshiki wrote:

“I’m very shocked because I heard his sudden death. I still cannot believe it. He is sleeping with a very beautiful face. I tried to wake him up again and again, though he is still sleeping. Hide was the calmest person in X-japan. It was also hide who always calmed me down and gave advice to me, who was an over-impulsive leader. Of course, sometimes he lost his way when he was under pressure. However, he always called me in such a case. We talked about everything; such as our band, music, friends, life, fans. Sometimes he was like my elder brother, and sometimes like a younger brother. Sometimes, we drank and fought, but he always said the next day, “Yoshiki, what did I do yesterday? Sorry, I don’t remember a thing.” However, he went to sleep without saying anything now. All his fans, and all his friends, everyone is confused I think. I can’t express how sad I am, but we have to accept the fact ‘cause we can’t change anything. Now, everyone, including his parents, is trying to get over this tragedy. We, X-japan, are also trying to do so. So, all his fans, please also do so. Please see off hide, who always encouraged and supported us, in wonderful way by our hand. Please see him off to heaven warmly.”

there's prolly one thing i'd like to say..